Thanksgivingg!~~ :D

wooo i'm finally home for thanksgiving!! :D
i guess i wasn't super excited beforee~
kinda dreaded being away from amanda for 4 days hahaha

BUT hey, now i'm home and it's great ! :D
it's just nice to be in my own room again! and sleep in my bed! and stufff
haha

OKay~ ima make mashed potatoes and pie todayy hehe :]
weee

wish i could spend a thanksgiving with you some time, amanda! :x



i should make a post about what i'm thankful for later
hehe if i remember :x

One month!! :D

omggg so like..

Amanda came over last night, but she seemed kinda downn
and i pried out of her that she didn't really feel like coming over cause she was tiredd
but instead of telling me that, she just came anyway!! D:
i felt badd cause i kinda invited her over, but happy that she came anyway haha >
anyhoww!~
so like today, as in before it became 12 =-= but yea! todayy is one month since we've started going out

ahh i guess i didn't think it was a big day or anythingg
but! she made a little picture frame with our picture in it!~
and left it on my desk! she put it there while i was in class
haha sneakeh sneakehh
ahhhh sooo happy when i saw itt

wahh gush gush ><
i was smiling dumbly at nothing for the longest timee
wahhh :D

okok :]
if i got back earlier, the post would actually say the right date =-=
lol ><

College! xD

Since i failed to actually blog last time.. i'm going to attempt one more time haha xD

So yea! i'm in college now :]
and it's great here!
this campus is just sooo chill and beautiful ! :D

plus, i've made lots of good friends~!
and a girlfriend too! o.o
ahhh~ xDD

so happy here, heh
the day we got together is so easy to remember too! haha 101909
see?! so oool xD
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you see it right? the 101? and the 909? haha

so yea! so crazehh~
everything is good, and happy, and... complicated?


before i got with my girlfriend, her name is Amanda btw!, she was in a really close relationship with another guy, like they were pretty much together!
but they weren't? x.x
for some reason, that didn't work out, like he cut their relationship short
so now they're just friends, even though she liked him a lot!~
and then, shortly after, we got together xD!

so i guess i need some advice
even though i feel that we're really happy together, and she really loves me! and i love her!
whenever i see her with that other guy, they're still friends, she's always smiling and looking reallly happy!
i wish i could make her that happy, all the time. :\
then i either get really sad for not being able to make her that happy~
or a little pissed that he can and i can't
then occasionally, i wonder if she picked me cause she couldn't pick him D:
advice on how to cope?