revelations~

after all that's happened in the past month
right now, i don't really feel like typing much
but i feel like i should write this down somewhere.. just cause.. i should? i dunno

in any case, the past two months of my relationship has been.. a lie
or at least, a misunderstanding~
my girlfriend doesn't love me like she says she does, and i believed it
all those things i questioned, have been answered
why did she do what she did? cause she didn't love me!
all so easy...
and now everything's been swept away..

she asked for a second chance, and seemed pretty genuine about it, so i'm giving it..
but that doesn't change how it hurts when she does what she does..
i mean, at least she's justified now cause she doesn't actually love me, unlike before when she was 'supposed' to.
in any case, all i can do now i wait and see if she truly will come to love me.. it's hard to even comprehend if she likes me..
oh well~

guess i'll just be dealing with this for the next month or so, waiting
sometimes i wonder if it's even worth it

her track record shows that she'd just forget about me and find someone else.
but i don't want to believe that, and i feel that there's more to her than that
but what do i know? i've been dating a 'fake' so to speak

really, i'm not sure what parts were true and what parts weren't
i can only try to convince myself now that whatever happens from here on out is true and heartfelt~

so i'll pray, and wait




«·´`·.(*·.¸(`·.¸ I'm hanging by a thread ¸.·´)¸.·*).·´`·»
‹^›«·´¨*`·.¸¸.·* I want to be free *·.¸¸.·´*¨`·»‹^›
«·´`·.(¸.·´(¸.·* How long until you tell me the truth? *·.¸)`·.¸).·´`·»